It has come to my attention that as a moderate, in nearly every discussion, I will always be in the minority. Any conversation about politics--it is the extreme and committed party line voters who talk politics--or religion involves people who are dedicated to one belief/stance or another. Sports, academia, work - I am moderately good at these things but not quite exceptional. And being moderate is not a bad thing, indeed, I am quite content to be the moderate balance to nearly everything I apply myself too. I have deep passions for this or that, but find there is little natural aptitude for many things. I do read exceptionally fast but I wonder if I only comprehend moderately?
It can be a frustration world in the life of the moderate man. Having deep passions for soccer i have only moderate ability so my desire to play, win, and enjoy the game is limited by my moderate fitness, moderate talent, and moderate time in which to apply myself to the world's game. I love mountain biking a great deal but I have only moderate skill on the trails, further, I have only moderate courage when it comes to trying new and challenging components of the sport. I suppose this is an element of the cross I bear.
For all my moderate abilities I am able to develop deep passions about the things I moderately believe in...right...I become consumed with the little things my neighbor does that annoy me, that I am sure he does on purpose. Like parking in such a way that I have to back up to drive away, or dumping scrap lumber on the city right of way where the block is able to park thus eliminating a parking space. I become consumed with the knee jerk reactions of all the extremist political parties. The debates and positions collide in my head and run my mind ragged with their antics until I have exhausted my (moderate) capacity to internalize my thoughts and they flare out quietly.
I am an extremist impaired by the mentality of a moderate and I am destined to take on the mantle of the devil's advocate in a very moderate way.
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