Nothing is ever certain in life. A lesson i have been learning throughout the past year. The plans we make for the future are often contingent on the stability and reliability of other people--employers, landlords, friends, spouses, etc...--and with a few notable exceptions (my wife and close friends) the reliability of people is sadly lacking. Though I've been learning how to cope with the unpredictable nature of the future it is still challenging when i wake up unemployed. The comforting nature of money, the knowledge that we are provided for and secure, is a great relief, and when it is uncertain how and where that provision is coming from life seems temporary and frightening.
Ultimately, in five years, this will seem like a footnote in our story but the future and past are very unreal for me these days and the reality of the present is all i have to go on. The reality this morning is that i am unemployed and on the dole. The reality of tomorrow is unknown. The lesson I've really learned over the past year is that i can not make plans for tomorrow. Who knows the mind of God, the actions of others, or the nature of the weather? It is ultimately a great mystery and the answers will be forthcoming in time. As for today i can only live the best i can life and let the tomorrow come as it will.
The sun will rise, presently, and though it will be behind the grey clouds of a northwest winter day, it will shed light on the world around me and i will see a bit more clearly than before. All I hope this morning is that there will be things worth seeing.
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